I caught a glimpse of myself and I didn't like person I've become.
Fail on so many different points:
- socially. I feel isolated and separate from my 'friends'. I am so fucking boring now that people slot me between appointments. Being self-employed and working from home isn't helping.
- overweight. WTF happened?
- business. I worked so hard for so very little financially
- family. was i so focussed on reestablishing my new career that I missed the little things?
I don't know where to begin to make myself happier- if I go back to the psychs I don't think this is going to help
Its hard to shut down the visualisation of hanging myself or jumping off a bridge. The only thing that is holding me back are the kids.
